Hello.

I've never been a big fan of goodbyes, and I hope each and every day that I won't have to experience another one. The bad part about not liking goodbyes is that it hurts even worse whenever one is initiated. I'd much rather experience a "Hello" or "It's been a while..." than a "Take care." or a "Goodbye."

There have been so many goodbyes I've had to experience, whether it be because relationships ended, or because I moved, or other people moved. Sometimes I think about how there are certain things that I wish I had told people. Sometimes I wish I had told a certain girl that I had been crushing on her for a year or so, but I waited too long, and a boy snatched her up, and then when things between the two of us grew into a better friendship, she took off. I used to be awkward when hugs happened between the two of us, but if I had hugged her the way that I hug everyone else, I think our relationship would've developed a lot quicker.

That seems to be a problem I have. I'm a very embracing person, but I hold it back too often, because my image seems to be getting the better of me. What's even worse than me not being as embracing is that other people would probably like me more if I was as embracing as I really am. I'm a lot more fun to be around whenever I act like myself. I'm crazy. I'm not kidding.

I'll never be good at goodbyes. I've decided it just wasn't meant for me to be good at them. But since I won't ever be good at them, I should just start to be very good at hellos. That's going to be my New Year's Resolution. To be better at Hello's. First impressions are supposed to be the best ones, so I'm going to start making amazing first impressions.

Steven, if you read this, this is for you. I miss you a great deal, and honestly wish that we had become better friends. I love you.

Bounce

We jump on trampolines as if to get to Heaven, but we walk on hell and we forget it's there. A pilgrim made his progress, but is progress ever enough? We reach what we call salvation, and then we stop reaching for God. What if God one day decided that all of those people that don't live as if they've been saved didn't deserve their salvation, so He took it away? What would we say? Would we still wear Christianity like the latest trend? Or would our lives clean up?

God has the power to take it away. Not that He would ever take away your salvation, but just remember that if He wanted to, He could.

Red slippers

I've become Dorothy in this wonderful Land of Oz. Everything seems to be perfect. I'm with my friends all of the time, I don't have to worry about school or about a job, I have no commitments. It was in fact, fun while it lasted, but I'm not a child anymore. I'm a man. In order to be treated like one, I have to start acting like one. The lips that were continuously shared on couches have left a sick feeling in my stomach, and have possibly turned me off to sharing my lips with any other person. The smacking sounds I endured from both food and kissing have destroyed me. I simply need a break from everything.

I might not see my friends for a while. I have to piece everything together. Bye.