Neither poor, nor rich.

Over the past few days, I've found myself embarked on an adventure. I pierced my septum on Friday the 13th, and it truly did turn out to be an unlucky day. I showed my mother the piercing on the very next day, and it's as if hell had broken loose. When I returned home for work that night, my phone, car keys, and basically my whole life were taken away.
The phrase, "I don't know how you're going to get to work and school," came from my father's lips. My own father had just told me my future was shot. He even took the savings I had let him hold for me. He said he wasn't going back on his punishment this time, and I used the fact that he said that in my argument for leaving the house in such a hurry the next morning.
Yes, I left the house.
Sunday morning, I was awoken and told I had many decisions to make. Well, I made my one big decision: I must move out, because I'd rather live somewhere else than live in this house with no freedom at all. So I packed my suitcase, and as I was closing it, one of the zipper's broke. "God, I'm still leaving," I said.
My little brother's voice was the last one I heard. "I'll miss you." he said. "I'll miss you too." I returned. A post-it note with the lyrics from a Buddy Holly song were left on the table in my absence. It read: "All my huggin' and all my kissin', you don't know what you been missin', oh boy!"
I walked to where my best friends were. My grandfather tried to stop me on the way, but I let him know what I really felt for the first time in my life. "You were the same one who said I couldn't go into your house with the ring in my nose." He couldn't say much more. He left. The most influential person that has ever, and mostlikely will ever, enter my life was the second one who tried to stop me. Except he just asked me to get breakfast with him. It was hard not to get into his car.
I felt like if I wanted anyone to see me, it would be him, because I know he wouldn't judge me in the least bit, but at the same time, I felt almost disappointed in myself that I had let him see me that way. I let him know that I had a place to go, and so, in order to follow my will, he left. I praise the Lord for Lance Sudduth.
I hadn't shed a tear yet. I arrived at the new home, and as soon as JP opened the door, I bawled my eyes out. Tears fell like rain into my lap. Luckily, Have Heart, Take it Back!, and Looking Forward were within reach, and my mood soon got better. Mr. Herrington sent a text saying I could live there as long as I needed. The tears returned.
Jp and I have been pooling our money together. We began buying groceries, with a little bit of money from Mr. Herrington, and I received my money for California back, however, I had to return the van that my mother had brought for me to use. I got to keep my phone.
I started riding a bike today. That is hard. I am not even kidding. Bikeriding is not easy.
We're hoping to get jobs at a local church's daycare. I've been praying that the Lord follows through for us, if that is His will. I quit my job in Ridgeland, but my last check comes in Monday. I'm super excited.
Right now, our funds will hold us. We've got about 150 dollars. Which is great!
I'd like to start saving for a car or maybe an apartment. Whichever is the Lord's will. I've been digging pretty deeply into Scripture.
I watched a video of Francis Chan speaking the other night, and it changed the way I think about some things. Proverbs 30 talks about how the man's prayer is to be neither rich, nor poor, so that he can learn to depend on God. That is my prayer now too. I've been learning to ask God for my "daily bread". Dependence on God is the only way I can make it through this.
I've been allowed more time for things, now that I'm on my own schedule. I'd like to get back into ministry somehow. That'd be lovely.
My love for Jesus brings me to tears now. I was describing how God could've sent His son as Goku or something from Dragon Ball Z, but instead it wa a humble man with a beard, as a carpenter. That is about all I got out of my mouth before I began weeping again. God is just so good.
I will never advise you to leave home, however. It may seem like I'm learning a lot, and I am, but I don't advise you to do it too. A lot of heartache has been involved. On my side and my family's. Just stay true to what you love.